Scared

[mschatelaine]

Another episode of 'what the fuck am I doing...!?' Panic attack, crying on my friend's shoulder. Bless him, he's  really not cut out for it, his response is limited to 'there, there,' and reminiscing about how bad it was for gays fifteen or twenty years ago.

What I want is for someone to make it right. Unfortunately that means that I need to know what 'right' means, and then the 'someone' will end up being me.

'Right'?

Anybody?

Help?

please?

Comments

[carl-allery.livejournal.com]

Sorry, no answers. I think that 'right' is something you have to find by trial and error. But on the panicking front, and if it helps to talk about it, feel free to e-mail me any time (will be back from Japan tomorrow and on-line for the moment in any case) - you have my e-mail, right?. I'm also still feeling out what 'right' means for me, though I know that I'm a hell of a lot happier in myself since understanding that I'm gay, even if it's had no real effect on my life as yet - but I still keep wondering where they hid the label, and why the hell someone couldn't have told me. I mean, why the hell don't we get user instructions?

Glad I did a random trawl of my user info *g*.

[ms-chatelaine.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Yes, I've been aware of my own concerns for almost thirty years, but no sign of any instructions yet.

I've been following your adventures on angara's LJ, has Japan been good?

And are you going to Fantasycon in two weeks? Maybe we could have coffee and a chat.

[carl-allery.livejournal.com]

Sorry, no more cons this year - I need to conserve funds. But always up for on-line chatting and virtual coffee.

Yes, Japan has been great, if somewhat frantic. But sometimes I need a good kick to get me moving - left to myself I tend to vegetate ... *g*

[julesjones]

Do you know any other trans people you can talk to? Not even necessarily specifically about being trans -- from what I've observed of alt.fan.pratchett over the years, the trans people there seem to find it useful to have a space where they can simply grumble about stuff in the middle of a conversation and have people who will *understand*, not just be sympathetic (though the latter helps as well).

[ms-chatelaine.livejournal.com]

I'm in touch with rozk and there's a TV/TS support group in Glasgow, Crosslynx, that I've started going to. Both are really helpful in an 'I'm not alone' kind of way.

[banhe.livejournal.com]

Dunno about making everything right but how does a pot of tea and a listening ear sound (quite possibly with a side order of camera geekery?)

[ms-chatelaine.livejournal.com]

Tea and cameras sounds good, I'll give you a buzz.

[banhe.livejournal.com]

Please do; it'll be good to see you (and today would be good, just in case my text has gone astray. I don't trust my phone much.)